Yeah, I just, I've been searching for it
, man, just trying to get it, get
it to click, you know, and so doing
everything I can in, in between to trying to
, trying to feel right and, uh, you
know, just, just didn't click tonight, so
I'm working really hard, you know, trying to
find my footing and you know, hit my shine
string a couple good ones together. I'm just gonna
keep working, you know, it's all I can
do it super frustrating, you know, the guys
have been playing really well and so, you know
, to give up four or five or whatever it
was, you know, just, just very frustrating
. So is there anything in particular in the first
inning that was 31 pitches? Obviously their team that
hits lefties really well. Um, but was there
anything in particular in that first thing that you were
kind of dealing with? Yeah, I mean,
it's, it's like, it's, it's really just
about me right now. I mean, it's as
simple as that. I just, I've been,
you know, I've had some of the command stuff
, you know, up and down throughout the year
and so I've just been working hard to kind of
write that ship. Um, and I do feel
like it is mechanic mechanical and just been working really
hard in, in, in between to, you
know, to try and, you know, feel
like I'm clipping it every time and, uh,
you know, trying a lot of different things that
, that, that have worked for me in the
, in the past and I'm just kind of waiting
for, you know, to have that, you
know, oh, shit moment where it just kind
of all starts to come, come, come together
and I'm gonna keep working as hard as I can
to be, as prepared as I, as I
can for the next one and just kind of go
from there, you can be more down a little
bit. Does that, can that be a mechanical
thing too? Yeah, I think it's directly correlated
for, for, for sure to some of the
stuff I I've been playing with and so, um
, you know, just one day at a time
and get with the guys tomorrow and, and just
try and get ready for the next one and just
keep working to figure out that, that that's gonna
kind of sync everything up and kind of get into
a place that I wanna be. Does it make
it any harder? Just because you just had two
where it was much better and, and, uh
, you've had starts here and there where it looked
much more normal and you know, it doesn't make
it harder to kind of swallow when you can't carry
that into the next one or. Yeah. You
know, part of that is, you know,
I, I don't speak for, you know,
every guy that's in the, in the big league
but, you know, you want to be really
good. Right. And so, you know,
even when I've had those, you know, a
couple, a couple of good ones, a couple
of bad ones, what, whatever it may be
, you know, the goal is to be as
good as I can. Every, every, every
time out, you know, everything I'm doing in
between, I'm shooting for my ceiling, you know
, I'm, I'm not just trying to just kind
of stay in the, in the middle. I'm
trying to be the best player that I can,
that I can be. Uh, and so,
uh, sometimes there's growing pains with that and so
I'm gonna just gonna keep working and, and,
and try and get in a good spot where I
feel like I can have that consistency, you know
, start to start, you know, and,
and, and every day and so, you know
, uh, you know, nothing changes from that
aspect. We'll go and go over my outing and
go over some of the throws I made and just
kind of take, take it from there like we've
been doing